Things have been welllllll ...exhausting. Lola is going through some sort of 4 month wakeful period and she absolutely hates sleep of any kind. She fights it tooth and nail...well not tooth yet :) I am really finding myself becoming more intent on studying her, I just want to know whats wrong and how to fix it, because like any mother I hate to hear her cry. As a result, I am starting to interpret her cries more, like the "I'm really mad at you for making me lay down" cry or the "I rolled over and now I'm stuck" cry or the ever popular, "I'm not gonna fall asleep even if I have to scream to keep myself awake" cry. I think I am kind of in a wakeful period myself, with trouble sleeping or taking naps. I don't want to, just in case I miss something!
We started putting her in the nursery last Sunday...EEK!! It was scary, but I had a great peace about it. I knew it was time. I usually ended up leaving the service with her and I just really was starting to starve spiritually.
Bryan and I really want to reconnect with others and each other, since it seems like we have unplugged with all the adjustments and now we just don't fit back in our same little life. We are sifting through where we fit into a small group and want to start going to a S.H.A.P.E. class at our church just to refocus on our strengths and how God has wired us to serve Him. We are also going to start reading a book together and then once a week discuss it. We did this a few times when we were dating and it was a really good way for us to connect and to grow spiritually at the same time. We chose, "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. Only just finished the second chapter, but I can already see it's going to be a life changer.
We are going to run the Tulsa Run, a 15k here in Tulsa...(might be where they got the name) on October 29th, then take a few days to get packed and we are heading to PA for a celebration, although slightly belated. My nephew turns one! and to just spend some time with my family since we won't be able to go home for the holidays.
On a more serious note, I've been challenged recently to live with no regrets, specifically in the thought arena. I can get (especially lately) so consumed by worry and stress that I just toss aside the truths of God's control and love. When I used to hear people talk about living with no regrets, I would be in awe because I regret things every day. But I think this is less about being perfect and more about focusing on the end result, bringing glory to God.
Well I better get going, little Lola is starting to stir, from her NAP! yes, maybe we are turning a corner here :) Until next time!