It's not over till...

Ah, well I got the blog bug this afternoon and decided that I wouldn't let this thing go for a year without a post.  Life is busy, life is weary, but life is good.  Lola is almost 3 and 1/2 and Eloise will be 16 months soon.  God has blessed me beyond what I could ever have asked or imagined.

Lola loves everything Cinderella, dancing, twirling, and sparkle.  She carries her Cabbage Patch doll pretty much everywhere.  She is obsessed with everyone's birthday and asks me multiple times a week whose birthday is next and how old they are going to be and most importantly if they will share their cake.

Miss Eloise is my snuggle bug.  She loves to give hugs and kisses.  She also knows how to throw a good temper tantrum, buuuuuut then she's right back to snuggling. She likes to look at books, not so much read them.  She also likes dancing, although I'm sure Lola has influenced that love.  She says Mama, Dada, Rara, book, shoes, no and Papa,

There are so many things rolling around in my head these days.  So much to write, but the words are hard to put on paper.  The older I get the more I see how desperately I need Christ.  I cannot live without Him, there is no reason, no hope.  That's what this world needs most right now is hope.  It's been such a burden on my heart lately.  I can't even go to the gym without being bombarded by the pain, fear and suffering in this world splashed all over the TV.  Now that I have these two little sweet girls, it is even more important that I trust God.  Important isn't even the right word, it is necessary, I can't get through a news broadcast without thinking about what the future holds and I can't get through the rest of the day without remembering who holds the future.

I read something in C.S. Lewis' book Mere Christianity the other day about how this world has a parasite, sin,  that this isn't how it's supposed to be, but that God in his great sovereignty, decided that giving us a free will to choose love and choose Him is better than making us robots with no pain or strife.  I have never thought of it like that before.  It's not about God swooping down and saving us from our every day, here on earth, life, filled with all that sin causes.  It's about God loving us, wanting a higher way, wanting a true love, joy and peace for our hearts.  I don't know about anyone else, but I give that an AMEN.